My plan is to go in the evenings after Grant gets home or as a family on the weekends.
But this past weekend came and went and I didn’t want to go to the store. And this morning rolled around and I discovered that we were pretty much out of everything.
Could I tackle the store for a few items? Would that be insane?
I’ll be honest, caring for a newborn is much easier the third time around. I’m relaxed about it and that feels so good. Most of the time, I realize why our son is crying. And the other times, I realize he is just fussy because he is a baby and babies cry.
I’m tired during the day and I have circles under my eyes but I also realize it won’t be like this for long.
But of course this time around, I’m not just caring for a newborn. I am also raising a two-year-old and a four-year-old. Two little people who are struggling for independence but are still ever so dependent on me.
I am figuring it out.
And today, it was the grocery store.
I pulled into the lot and looked at the three sweet faces in the back seat.
Could I do this?
And then I did what all mothers do. Regardless of how I felt in that moment, I made a plan of action and executed it.
With each push of the buggy through the grocery aisles, I felt more confident. I could do this.
Before I knew it, I was heading home with a trunk full of groceries and not just two, but three children safely strapped in the backseat (one crying his little head off).
Thank you, God, I prayed. Thank you for that.
Becoming a mother is like embarking on unchartered territory or pioneering a new land. From the moment you find out you are pregnant, to the daily grind of running a house with little ones, there is so much unknown.
Even though millions of women have gone before you on this journey, it’s still new to you.
When you are expecting your first child, you don’t know what labor and delivery will be like. You wonder if you will be able to do it. How do women do it?
And when you bring your baby home from the hospital, you frantically realize that there is no instruction manual. That being a mom really is all up to you.
Then there is each new challenge along the way: figuring out how carseats and strollers hook & buckle, a manageable nap time routine, and whether you should rock your little one or let them cry it out.
With each new step, you do things you never thought you could. Before you know it, it’s second nature and the lady in the grocery store looks at you and says, “Wow, you have your hands full!” You smile and think, It’s not that hard. You’ve forgotten that not that long ago you were afraid to get out of the car.
And then you realize, motherhood has changed you. You are strong.
Strength in Weakness
Being a mother is not about having it all together. In fact, the moment that you think things are going pretty swell, is exactly the moment when something comes along that throws you for a loop. You are driven to your knees and like a new mom afraid to go in the grocery store you say, God please help me.
And He does. And you discover once again that God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble (James 4:6).
When I was a brand new mom and the dishes were piled high or I was struggling with how to get our daughter to sleep, Grant would often whisper in my ear, “Be strong and courageous.”
Those words helped me look beyond myself and what I thought I could handle, to God. He was and is the one who gives me strength for this task of motherhood. He will finish the good work He has started in me (Phil. 1:6). That includes every dirty diaper and each new step.
A Brave New Mom
Being a mother is not for the faint of heart. It’s not for the selfish.
But the problem is, we are faint of heart and we are selfish.
But that’s the amazing thing about God. He uses the weak things of this world to shame the wise (1 Cor. 1:27). And when we call on Him in repentance and humility, He hears (2 Chron. 7:14).
And He makes us strong (Isaiah 40:31).
So, new mom, don’t be afraid. Turn to God. He will help you figure it out. He will be with you as you step into the unknown.
And to the mom who’s been at it a while, remember the One who helped you at the very beginning. He’s still there. And He delights in making the weak strong.
Though youths grow weary and tired,
And vigorous young men stumble badly,
Yet those who wait for the Lord
Will gain new strength;
They will mount up with wings like eagles,
They will run and not get tired,
They will walk and not become weary.
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